Tuesday, September 25, 2012 1:43 AM
As Long As You Love Me.
Hey, gonna talk about my sad, sad life today.
Warning: This will be an extremely long post. 

So for a year plus now, my family and I have been staying in a rented apartment. Because my uncle was diagnosed with leukemia last year and we planned to live together so my mom can take care of him. But after we sold our house, he decided to stay with his wife's brother instead. The prices for houses' quite high, so my dad decided that renting will be cheaper so ta-da.

He invited his friend and his girlf to stay with us to lighten his burden. Their rent was $1000(inc. bills unless the bill's ridiculously high bc his ac is on like 24/7 and so is his computer) and we let him have a toilet. But last month, they moved out so now my dad has to pay the rent and bill himself and the rent is $2900/mth.

So my uncle bought a 3 room(?) flat and he asked us to stay with him so that we don't have to spend so much money on rental but whenever my mom or uncles told him that paying so much for renting an apartment is not worth it and that he should buy an apartment because next year around May, the place that we're staying at now will be en bloc-ed, he'll get all mad and crazy. Saying that "I don't have that much money to buy an apartment now" or "the bank only approved our 50% loan and I need at least 70%" yada yada... But he can afford to pay $2900/mth? Wow.

A lot of times my aunt also told him that he needs to buy a place asap because where else will our family stay?

So last night, my mom told me that my dad say that his collegue/friend Richard bought a place recently and that he asks him if he wants to rent like 2 rooms from him for $2000/mth. And my mom and I both disapprove. He has 2 dogs and I have a dog and staying with another person/family is so fucking inconvenient. So I told my mom 'worst comes to worst, we'll all just live separately. He can go live where ever he wants, and we'll go live with our uncle." And she said that's what she's been thinking too.

But then, after thinking for awhile... If we all live separately my parents are sure to get a divorce. And recently my dad's been behaving pretty annoyingly. And we all cannot really be bothered to talk to him anymore. I mean, when we talk to him nicely, he'll answer like... Uh, like he cannot be bothered to answer us nicely or he'll just ignore the person that's talking to him until we get annoyed and shout at him then he'll be like "nobody respects me".

And when my brother and I were still young like maybe kindergarten age, he lost a lot of money in stocks with my uncle to the point where our whole family almost committed suicide. And he told my mom "if not for you and the kids, I won't have so much burden now." He said that we were the ones who dragged him down.

My dad and my brother 2 years ago.
My family at my cousin's wedding super long ago.
When my brother was still young and cute.
Me last year.
Me at prom 2 years back.
Me & Amanda, 2 years back as well.

See how much me & my brother changed appearance wise? 
Looks are not the only thing that changed though. Everybody's r/s with each other changed too...
I miss the past.
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Sunday, September 9, 2012 8:08 PM
My Love Wins.

After watching Friends I realised that some people really can stay friends forever. They fight but they make up after like a few days?
But my 'best friend' really disappointed me. 说一套做一套. It means saying one thing but doing another.

The one person that I thought will never change even after being proved wrong so many times. The one person that I chose to trust but she chose to let me down anyway.

I guess this is how life is sometimes.

You thought everything will be fine now but BAM! that motherfucker that's known as life turns around and slap you in the face and punch you in the stomach.

And regarding my bucket list, 15 of them are about getting tattoos.
But I really want them! I've been thinking about getting it since I'm 15(?)...
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Wednesday, September 5, 2012 2:44 AM
All those crazy things you said, you left them running through my head.
Hello people!

It's been like 2 weeks since I blogged but it's okay, because there's no one reading anyway. So...

I don't care, I'm still gonna blog. :) 

So on the 3rd it was Kelly's birthday! Treat her to lunch at some Japanese restaurant at Yishun and I chip in $10 for her present. Hehe.

Yesterday we had lunch at Bistro with the usual, Alice Tay & Luwei.
Waited super long for my pasta and the chicken wings that we ordered was cold and hard.
NOT SATISFIED!
Then when we came back we saw something on our tables...
Lao ban soya beancurd!
Alvin bought them for us~

Then today we went to Ajisen for lunch at AMK hub, ate spicy miso ramen (I put my chili separately because I don't eat spicy stuff but I still want taste in my soup. ^_^). Was super crowded and we waited quite long for our food...

When I was paying I heard someone calling me, then I turned around but I didn't see anyone that I recognized then I saw Iriss! Her hair was quite short, that's why I didn't recognize her. She was my colleague/manager while I was working in Astique. Always run into her when I'm out. She say she know it's me because she recognize my voice. -.- Haha! Cannot believe she still remember me lah.

We chatted for awhile and I asked her where she's working now because a few months ago(or was it last year...?) I ran into her at Vivo's starbucks (it was kind of scary that time. Because Nadiah and I was sitting at a table in the corner then suddenly I received a message. It says something like "I can hear you from here. So loud." Then I was like 'shit. Wtf?' Then I replied something like "o.o Where are you?" Then I started looking around because it's creepy! Then I saw her sitting on the other side.) then I asked her why isn't she at work and she said she already left Astique for some time. So she said she's still looking for a job and I asked why did she leave Astique. She said it was because of Alicia. They didn't get along well in the first place, but now there's some disagreement between them. 

So I asked her "then who's working at Astique now?"

Doris left after me, then Iriss left after that Rebecca left as well and now Rachell's not working there anymore.

Haha! Karma's a bitch! *winks*

It's 5.42pm now! Ending work soon~
Hehe! That's Bunny (grav3yardgirl). I love her okay!

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Thursday, August 23, 2012 1:32 AM
Let's waste time chasing cars.
Hello hello! Okay, so today we're gonna do something exciting!

Wait for it.

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Wait some more.

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Are you ready?

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You sure?

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Okay then...

I'm making a bucket list!

Yay!

I'll try my best to do everything on my bucket list!

Here it is...

1. Go to 
  • Paris
  • New York
  • London
  • Korea
  • Japan
  • Italy
2. Go backpacking with a few friends.
3. Do voluntary work at SPCA and some other animal shelters oversea.
4. Get married at Disney World with a super awesome princess theme!
5. Adopt a lot of kids!
6. Visit a lot of Paris sidewalk cafes.
7. Meet Taylor Swift and tell her how awesome she is.
8. Meet Infinite!
9. Meet One Direction.
10. Meet Yamapi.
11. Meet Demi Lovato and tell her how much I admire her for being so strong.
12. Watch some actors/actresses filming a movie! (Does that make sense?)
13. People watch for a whole day.
14. Make someone over.
15. Have a photo shoot with some friends.
16. Get a tattoo that says "Just because you're breathing doesn't mean you're alive."
17. Get a wrist tattoo that says "Fearless"
18. Get a love & peace logo wrist tattoo.
19. Get an Infinite logo tattoo. Preferably this.


20. Get a tattoo with the quote "To die would be an awfully big adventure" from Peter Pan.
21. Get a tattoo with the quote "I open at the close" with a golden snitch from Harry Potter.

22. Get this tattoo 

23. Or this

Maybe in a different place.
24. Get a Deathly Hallows Symbol tattoo.


25. Get a Dark Mark tattoo. I love Harry but I also love Draco...


26. Get an 'Always' tattoo.
27. Get a 'Lumos' tattoo.
28. Get 'The boy who lived' inked on me.
29. Get 'The one who greeted death as an old friend' inked on me.
30. Get a 'Until the very end' tattoo.
31. Get a 'Obliviate' tattoo.

That's all for now! Will update if there's anything else I want to add!

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Tuesday, August 14, 2012 11:24 PM
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing.
Hello lovelies! It's been awhile since I blogged, so... Here I am!
Hehe.

So yesterday I went to Yishun for lunch with Nadiah and we decided to make a video in Mcd.
We wanted to film blind and idiotic people that cannot read the sign that says "use the other door" and they kept trying to open the door and it's absolutely hilarious!
But in the end we filmed ourselves doing stupid things in public.
Here's the one we took in the bus.


We'll be putting up "What We Like & Dislike In Guys" next week so stay tuned!

I had only Ritz biscuits and tea for lunch today because K, S and C forgot about me... Assholes. Lol!
And and and, I'm totally in love with T Mills lah!
I know, I know. He's a fucking douchebag that sings about fucking girls and smoking weed but... I can't help it! He's so hot!

Go listen to Vans On by T Mills! (And watch the M/V please. He's so hot...)
I totally love this part in the M/V.


Hot right?! Omfg... *le faints*
Don't worry, I still love Infinite & 1D more. :)

Aiya, you know what? I'll just post T Mills' M/V here lah.


Don't die okay? Shall go now, bye bye!
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Sunday, July 22, 2012 11:21 PM
It's nice to know we had it all.

Hey guys, I'm back after 1 week and 2 days(?)! And I've been thinking...

What do we actually live for?

It's like we go to school for 20 years of our lives and then we work and work and work then you get a boyfriend/girlfriend(maybe) and if you're lucky you get married and have kids, then you save money and spend them all on housing/transport/food/bills/groceries then you work until you're like 70 then you retire and all your stuff & money go to your wife/husband and kids after you die... So what's the purpose of living?

How many of you can honestly say that you like the job that you have and you chose it because it's your interest. I think 95% of us can't.

And for those that's forte is not studying... People look down on us.

Like myself. I've never been good at studying. I'm so bad at Math & Science that it's ridiculous. I went to high school for 4 years and ITE for around 6-7 months and quit because my Biology is so terrible that I failed 3-4 times. I'll admit that I let a lot of people down. My parents, maybe my brother and my aunt that went to look for tuition teachers for me because she wanted me to go for my O levels but I gave up anyway. I started working at 17 and I've worked at so many different places for the past year.


I worked as a receptionist at Astique for a month where they treated me like a maid. Making me climb up and down to get things in 4 inch heels then making me wash the dishes, make tea, running around to take out the garbage, cleaning so many containers, vacuuming the floor, making facebook page and doing advertising online and in the end I became like an assistant as well. All for $5/hour. Then they told me that the place was 'overstaffed' and that they'll call me back if they need me. But I told them "no need to. I've been looking for another job anyway." And they act like they're so kind by saying "do you need me to help you?" Obviously not.

Then I went to Cache Cache at Ion as a fashion advisor for 2 months. The people there are awesome except for the store manager who's from the Philippines. Everyone hated her.

Now I'm working at NCS Hub as an admin. I've been working here since 9 of Feb(which is also my birthday by the way).The job here is pretty good, and most of the people here are nice and friendly. Except for a few exceptional ones.

So I guess my life's pretty interesting (in my opinion). I've been a waitress, a student nurse, a receptionist/maid/asst, a fashion advisor/retail sales and now an admin.

But these things are not my interest. Except for the one at Cache Cache.

My interest is dancing & fashion. But if I were to go to a dance class now, I would have no income. So in order to have a stable income, I have to work. But my pay is only enough for my monthly spending so I have no savings. So again, my question... What do we live for?

I mean people always say "Do what you love. Love what you do." But it's easier said than done.

It's hard to love something we don't enjoy doing.

My everyday routine:

7am: Wake up and get ready.
7.35am: Go the the bus stop.
8.35am: Reach my stop. Walk to my office.
8.45am: Reach the office, set up my laptop and go to the canteen for breakfast.
8.55am: Eat breakfast and read emails.
9am: Start doing work (if any)
12pm: Lunch time.
2pm: Come back to office and continue doing stuff.
5.55pm: Get ready to go home.

That's what I do everyday. Boring isn't it?

So my advice is... Figure out what you like to do before you choose your job because it ain't fun doing what you don't enjoy everyday of your life until you're 70.

Sorry for the extremely long post, I'll be ending it here now.
Bye bye!
-edit-

Before I forget, Astique made me do stuff like decorating the place, such as sitting on the floor or standing for an hour to paste wall decals. And before that I have to cut the sticker for idk... around 2 days. And I also have to download fashion shows to play on the tv as well.

These are the decals that I have to cut and paste onto the wall

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Friday, July 13, 2012 12:39 AM
떠나지 말
Hey guys!!!!! I made it back alive from the outing!
YAYNESS!

Anws, the kids are not as bad as we imagined. For the am session, the class is around 16-17 years old so they're not that bad. The girls are super friendly. Super. And we took 2 photos together but I'm not allowed to post it up on any social media sites. And the guys are super funny and entertaining. :)

For the pm session the class is 14 years old. And there was this super pretty Indian girl. At first I didn't like her because she seems arrogant but after a while she warmed up to me and was super nice and friendly. So... :)

For the am session we went to Asian Civilisations Museum, it's actually quite interesting but the guide like a bit kanjiong so we didn't really get to see much.

For the pm session, we went to chinatown. Super boring!

We went back at around 5.30pm because we have to fill some feedback form.
Then they keep saying that I'm one of the students here. Especially Joseph & Alvin.
Then I say "we same class one what. We're classmates."

Top row: Stephen, Vincent, Kong Hung, Joseph, Dedric, Kelly, May & Nurain.
Bottom row: Alvin, Evelyn, Susie, Cheryl, me & Alice.
Alice, me & May!
Evelyn + me! So pretty right? (✿◠‿◠)

Taylor Momsen gif of the day!

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